Im finding that one particular message seems to always come back ... whether im inquiring into my heart - 'What do I really want?' or to my Creator, 'How can I express your beauty?' or to my ancestors, 'How can I honor you and serve my community?' - the answer seems pretty much the same everytime... to just go ahead and BE. To stop seeking and to sink into what I am, to accept myself and my position fully and work from the place I am at- no matter what. I had a lovely conversation with Semerit Strachan today and a group of women who are leaning into 'Being', particularly in relationship to the crone stage of life... I took away some beautiful red thread notes and shared them. I also spent some time today feeling sad and under appreciated. Sometimes my 'Just Being' isnt enough for others. Sometimes its mental work to hold tight to the credence of 'Just BE', while you tend one (person or project) only to neglect another. Somedays everyone gets a little, even me.
Douglas is the four-legged giver of love, teacher of joy and bringer of comfort in our home. He is all about car rides and couch snuggles-any and all snuggles actually - bum pats, belly rubs and hip massages, play time, sun snoozing and snack time... Douglas does not love muzzle time, even though that is when we get to go far away from the house and into the bush trails. Because pitbulls are a legislated breed, Douglas has to muzzle up- and its best he does, as he has a nasty rabbit habit- in which all cats and small dogs are also rabbits. Today was a rough day for him... thunder & lightning had him shaking like a leaf, panting and whining... so we had a big long nap, from which he has still not waken, poor little dude... my sleeping beauty beast, my constant companion.